12/1/91 — Our NICU Journey Day 15
Isaac — 624 grams
Molly — 684 grams
You scared the hell out of me last night, buddy. Your heart rate kept dropping and all the monitor alarms kept going off. They had to “bag” you several times and your oxygen is still up very high — above 50 percent. I wish I could help you. Your little chest works so hard to breathe. You are still getting lipids and proteins and glucose, and you’re also still getting antibiotics, though after 24 hours the culture still shows nothing. You got a new isolette last night and they may be moving you into Molly’s room soon. You have been gaining quite a bit of weight — you are well over 600 grams again. We hope this is good news, and not just fluid building up in your lungs. Your heart is still over on the right. More wait and see. Tonight is the first night of your first Hanukkah, your second holiday in the hospital. We look forward to the Hanukkah’s ahead when we’ll light the candles together.
Molly, you got a new bed and they took the IV out of your head and put it into your arm. You got dose four of Indocin today and they have not heard your murmur in 24 hours. We have gotten to know many of the nurses and doctors taking care of you and Isaac. Some mostly take care of you, some mostly take care of Ike, some take care of both of you. One of my favorites is Jill. She is pregnant and her baby is due in April. You were due at the end of February or beginning of March. I asked her if watching you and Ike is like watching her own baby grow. She looked at me and very kindly said, “No, my baby is doing much better than yours because he is where he is supposed to be. Ike and Molly have a lot to deal with that the shouldn’t have to yet, and they aren’t growing or developing as quickly as they would inside your womb.” I know that’s true, and it makes me so sad that you have to be here before you were ready. But you have wonderful people like Jill taking care of you. Happy Hanukkah, little Molly. The first night of your first Hanukkah.